Since my first post wasn’t much of a post at all, here’s my second go at it. First, let me introduce myself. My name is Stephanie and I am a novice to the healthy living world. For the past 3 or 4 months, I have been trying to devise a plan to get myself healthy, fit, and overall just plain happier with my life. I started by joining the healthy living website Spark People and beginning a weight loss plan. Let me preface what I am about to say by telling you I absolutely love this website…and now comes the “but”…BUT some of the things they suggest are just not realistic for me. I cannot and will not limit myself to 1200 calories per day, nor will I ever count calories again (reference my first first post). They want you to log every single thing you eat and all your exercise. I’m sorry but I do not want to be tied to a computer all day long and running back and forth to see if I have enough calories left to eat this or that. If I want to indulge and it happens to slow my weight loss a bit, so be it. Life is too short to be so obsessed with one thing like that. Granted you can set your own goals and lose as much or as little per week as you want (up to 2 lbs.), some people try to eat less than 1200 calories and exercise like a mad person to try to lose much more in a shorter amount of time. NO. FRIGGIN’. WAY. I am trying to get a healthy balance by watching my portion sizes and adding in more whole, natural foods to my diet as well as enjoying some treats thrown in daily. I could never stick to a weight loss plan that would not allow those treats because I would feel deprived and binge like I’ve done in the past, countering all of my efforts and making me feel even worse.

See, this is not my first go ’round with the weight loss monster. I lost 70 lbs. in 2006 by basically eating next to nothing (1200 calories or less per day) and exercising 7 days a week for an hour at a time. NOT healthy. My body needed more calories for all the exercise I was doing, but I would not “give in”. I viewed fried foods, baked goods, and just about any other food besides veggies as “bad” and would not EVER eat them. Once I reached my goal, I ended up eating some onion rings at a fair and it was all downhill from there. I viewed myself as a failure for not being able to resist the temptation of the “bad” food and gained back all the weight I had lost twice as quickly as I had lost it. Now here I sit, starting all over again. I have already lost 15-20 lbs. so far (I don’t know the exact number since I haven’t stepped on a scale in about a month). I am doing it slowly and steadily this time. I aim for about 4-5 lbs. per month. I have 40-50 lbs. to lose to be at a comfortable weight, so it will probably take about a year or so to accomplish. But I am fine with that. This time it will STAY off. FOREVER.